LOL, I don't know.
But I do know that this is fast becoming an exhausting question.
Over the past six years, I've had this habit of slapping a label on my identity. I usually tie this label to whatever my current vocation is at the time.
At first, I was Alex the Accountant. Accepting this label was a massive struggle for two reasons:
1. I was still young and immature, and
2. At the time, "accountant" meant "glorified spreadsheet box ticker extraordinaire" (I don't think this anymore - my friends who kept going are super smart and are now doing incredible things)
Next, I was Alex the Fitness Coach. I enjoyed learning everything I could about health, helping people smash their first deadlift, and calling myself a coach. But after a while, I realized there is more to me than health and fitness.
Now, I'm Alex the Writer. I've been working as a copywriter for the past year, and things are great. I've grown leaps and bounds as a writer, and business no longer seems complex (biz in a nutshell: provide value → collect $$$).
But I find myself getting restless once again.
Humans are messy and are always in a constant state of flux, which makes sitting in a "box" for the rest of your life a difficult thing to do.
I don't know about you, but I'm tired of trying to squeeze myself into a box and make one thing my sole identity. There's so much other shit out there I want to explore, experiment, and talk about:
- Becoming more self-aware and sharing those insights with others
- Going outside in nature more often (mtb, skiing, backpacking)
- Buying real estate with my dad
- Experimenting with crypto
- Drinking more mindfully
- Writing fantasy stories
- Learning videography
- Picking up Muay Thai
- Learning to code
- And the list goes on and on and on...
If I tried to make any of these things my identity, I'd be satisfied for a hot minute before the shine inevitably wears off, and I'm left questioning myself once again...
"Who am I?"
So instead, I'm going to work on being OK with being Alex.
Not "Alex the XXX."
I hope this calms my identity crisis because no matter what I'm interested in or whatever project/business/career I'm working on, I'll always be me. And "being me" isn't something I can argue with.
I hope you have a fantastic week :-)
P.S. This message was inspired by Ali Abdaal's recent newsletter titled "My Identity Crisis."
Ali is a bonafide doctor and has made millions off of Youtube and course sales. I admire him greatly.
But it's good to know that no matter how successful we become, we still have to grapple with the big questions of life, continuously push forward into the uncertainty, and find our own way.
"Human history is a brief spot in space, and its first lesson is modesty."
Will Durant, The Lessons of History
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